I think he achieved exactly what he intended...

My dance teacher from this summer - the one who helped all of us to prove to ourselves that there really aren't any limits - he said the reason he talked so much in class was because he wanted to be the voice in our heads. And it worked, whenever I'm exercising I just hear his voice saying I can do more, how far will I push myself today, everything is possible today, is this what I want to do with my life, we can change ourselves right before our very eyes. He just doesn't leave my head very long, and its so inspiring, and I when I remember him I keep thinking, do more do more do more! You are capable of more... (Is this a really American way of thinking?)
I can't believe that in all my years of dance, it felt like so little change, and finally this summer, it all changed, and I was able to see for the first time, for myself, why I had been told times before that I could be professional. I know I'm not, but in a way I feel it.
I guess it made me feel like day to day problems are so useless...when I realized that these simple problems are not even problems, and they can all be overcome simply with strength of mind. Then we can focus on real problems. Real things that must change. Not just surface things. I hope I never forget this, I hope I never look back and wallow, never am intimidated, and focus on reality.
I guess achieving your dreams is as simple as pushing reality a little bit further into the unknown each day. I hope I will never be afraid of the unknown - that fear is the only thing that can stop us.

Second school visit

ummm...it was cool. I like my freeform "I think I will go see a school today" approach. I wander around, find the right building eventually, chill, talk to some people, and peace out of there.
Gosh...being back on campus at a university, really....I don't feel American anymore! Its SO funny! I mean, I know I am...but I really don't feel like it! Its so weird....

Travel?

Anyone want to join me for a quick trip to Texas?

Nervousness!

Dude..living abroad can hecka screw up your life unless you intend to stay there. And then it can destroy the life you had before. Not that this is disappointing...its just, I was thinking how slow to start so many of us are after returning home, well, compared to those who have been in the same country who seem to have everything organized, worked out, and easily accessible.
But, I suppose those three things right there are some of the reasons I chose to leave. I like it when things are difficult.
And as I went on my first 'school visit' yesterday...I was feeling so nervous about going to school in the US... how funny is that? I'm literally nervous because of the American education style and meeting all American people, will I fit in? I can't wait to go join the international society or japanese society or england society or whatever they might have. At this point, I would feel so much more comfortable if I went back to school in the UK...that would be so easy. hehehe, my lifes all backwards...
I'm planning my second school visit for Monday!

So, God willing, my little stint as a housewife is coming to an end soon! Yes, my time here, trying to clean-up the bit of mess that was left behind when I went to uni (though not my mess), has been really rather successful, only to the detriment of my own career. But, what's one year?
And as disappointing as it is to my feminist friends, I didn't mind being a housewife one bit, and I didn't get turned off to the idea. I do have to live in reality however...I don't think I will be able to afford this luxury for most of my life. There is one thing for sure...and this is partly why its time to move on, I don't want to live in someone else's life. I really want my own. I think I'd prefer to live alone than with other people because I want everything to be perfectly organized, I want things to be clean, and I don't want any extra junk.
So, my future feels exciting at last. I think I narrowed down my grad school choices, I decided, if I'm gonna stay in California, I want to be relatively close to home and snow, so I don't think I'll bother to apply to any schools in LA (Can you really imagine me living in LA anyway?). But, I do plan to do some 'study abroad' if at all possible. Doesn't that sound unique and exciting..like the opportunity of a lifetime??? an experience you'll never forget.... ;) ;) hhehehehehee

Oh, and I have some news I shouldn't blog...but you guys would NOT believe! So catch me online and I'll tell you!

Fun

It was fun, saw Half-Dome (very famous) at sunrise, wasn't even cold, found a great place to camp, didn't get eaten by a bear, hiked and didn't get sore...all in all...great weekend.

And fall is starting, it was raining! I love the cold weather, I can't wait for winter!