End of another era

School is ending, and though I'll be back in the fall, almost everyone I know here is going to be leaving!

Its hard to believe its been two years already. I am definitely ready to move on, but I will have about 6 to 9 months of moving around and stuff. SF for le working in the summer, SLO in the fall, some trip or back to work in SF after that?

Then I will be looking for a real job. Maybe I will move somewhere. Its hard to decide. I guess I will see what I get! I dunno, kinda wanna move back to europe...hmmm...big decisions....

The project that has taken up to much of my life since October is finally done! It is so ingrained in my head that I haven't fully comprehended this yet. I've never been such a large part of such a serious project.

I want to go and celebrate this finish so much, but I'm sooooooooo tired! So I'm going to sleep.

Moving back to the bay in a couple weeks...going to England in September....I'm excited for a nice change of pace.

Once a foreigner, always a foreigner

This is something I've felt since I moved back to the US, I just don't fit in. I pretend I do, people don't notice, but I just feel like such a foreigner.

Its the same feeling as when you are a foreigner, people talk about stuff and you don't understand, but because all of the non-foreigners understand, they assume you do to.

Once you cross that boundary, and who knows when it is, you can't go back. You come to a place where you are never content to stay in one country - which is an expensive habit - and you really only feel a connection with other people like you.

Today in class, one of my professors who has moved around a lot said it best -
Once a foreigner, always a foreigner.

Thank God I'm not the only person who feels this way.

Last night was so fun. I made a bunch of food and sangria, we ate and drank and danced! Then decided to go out to the bars.

I have been having fun lately. Teaching 15 minute dance lessons in my living room. Cooking a lot of good stuff! Listening to good music! And trying not so hard this quarter to keep up with my work!

Erin was not made for spring quarter - my brain shuts off after spring break!

Mistakes

People seem to get so angry at mistakes but I think they are the most necessary part of life.

I like to think of mistakes as recalibration. We keep making mistakes, and recalibrating until finally we have the right calibration and we are successful!

Things I hate about SLO

people don't know how to ride the bus, always taking their sweet time, asking the bus driver questions while a line of people are waiting behind them to get on, etc

people are too polite, a driver can see you coming from a mile away and stop to let you cross the street when they have plenty of time to go themselves

nobody moves quickly or thinks about efficiency, or at least getting out of other people's way, like they do in other places

Easter

This has been such a beautiful and relaxing weekend.

Yesterday we had a real Easter dinner with lots of folks at our house. It gave us a chance to really clean up, now the house looks beautiful.

Today we had an Easter egg hunt in Los Osos. To my surprise, it was actually really fun. People are more creative at hiding the eggs when you are older.

And I'm heading to church in about 10 minutes. Finished all the important work for the upcoming week. The house is just quiet and peaceful.... :)

... but a big decision looms....